Have you ever found yourself in a dark space where you could not see a solution to what was happening?  It felt like every time you thought you were moving forward and making progress when you stopped to look at your reality it had the appearance of defeat.  I found myself stuck today wanting to just give up, but then I reminded myself of whose I am.  I am a daughter of God and he is my Daddy.  Whenever I am in a dark place, all I need to do is look to him. “Be strong and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for and hope for and expect the Lord!” Psalm 31: 24

So today, while I was feeling sorry for myself, bellowing in self-pity, I received a message this message in my email:  “It may seem dark at the moment, but don’t lose hope. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel, keep moving and you’ll get there. God won’t abandon you; let God be your light. It may take some time, but in the end, everything will be alright.”  It was that reminder I needed at that moment.  I needed to know that what is happening now is only temporary.

My today was shaped by my choices from yesterday and my tomorrows will be shaped by the choices I am today.  So if I take courage and put my trust in the Lord, there should be no worry, no fear for those are not where God wants us our energy and imaginations to go; he wants us to remember “By having the eyes of your heart flooded with light, so that you can know and understand the hope to which He has called you, and how rich is His glorious inheritance in the saints (His set-apart ones).” Ephesians 1: 18

So remember when you are in a dark place, look to Jesus to shine light on your heart.  Light will always overcome the darkness.  The darkness won’t last, it is only temporary.

This morning I was sitting and actually doing my homework for women’s bible study.  I am reading through the scriptures and 2 Timothy 1:7 (NKJV) For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. pops into my head.  My lesson is about Grace and this free gift given by God through his Son, Jesus Christ.  So what are you showing me God?

I know that God is working on my heart and my mind.  When He starts working on me, that is calling me to make some changes in my life.  One of the thoughts that have been coming up in my life is I have not loved me as God loves me.  If I did would I have allowed myself to get to be 75 lbs overweight.  Would I have allowed my finances, my home, my relationships to be chaotic, stressful.  At one point in my life, I exercised everyday.  I wrote letters to friends and family far away.  I purposefully made time for friends and family.  I worked my way out of debt.  I kept things organized.

Somewhere I allowed my thoughts about myself put a seed in my heart that what I did or said, that my very existence didn’t matter.  Oh, how I must of broke my Heavenly Father’s heart when that thought took root.  I have allowed fear to take root.  The Holy Spirit is so awesome in how he reminds us of who we are in Christ.  I am reminded that the changes happening in my life are cleaning out the junk so it can be replaced by the power, love and sound mind.

I don’t have to listen to the crazy thoughts that go against that very truth.  I have no reason to have fear  in my life for the bible even says – If God is for us, who can be against us.  This next week I will be travelling to assist my sister and her family.  I am a home body and sadness comes over me but when this feeling comes I start singing a praise and worship song and the lyrics it say:

The Lord is my light and salvation, whom shall I fear whom shall I be afraid.

I will trust in you

I will remain confident in this.

I will see the goodness of the Lord.

I am choosing to embrace the changes that God has placed on my heart.  I am done struggling.  I am at a point where enough is enough.  I believe when we get to that point of working with God instead of outside of him, it is at that point we will not fear but embrace change.